To a friend who worries about her views on a certain photo-taking:
But this always happens, in writing, in thoughts, and in face-to-face encounters with anyone... the most suspicious always think that you're talking about them, or making bad parallels and remarks about others. Sad, but true.
Could crawl into a nice black hole, but then nobody would know about what a lovely person you are. And what if you aren't? Everyone's got a bit of loveliness inside of them... some just are harder to find than others.

To everyone in general:
Not really at peace with the world recently. Somehow, the irritation manifests itself in yelling, mostly at one specific junior, Andrew, though he's done nothing (not exactly an angel like Yee Yan, who consents to me collapsing on her when too tired to stand on own and Siu Qey is not around).
What's the problem? Two to three things (since I'm not sure if the last one is a thing).
1) My lousy grades. If I graduated with these grades, I can aspire to be a road sweeper.
2) APM. That wonderful time of year that leaves you full of feeling and expression... of utmost annoyance. Singularly the most traumatising event of my school life, and now, to boot, very very annoying as all the other J2s in other CCAs have 'retired gracefully'. Plus none of us are psychic enough to deal with teacher-in-charge... I don't hate her as a person per se... I just wish that I never ever wish to work with her on a sideline project. She demands dedication that I would rather invent in my studies.
3) My attitude. Too tired to think, breathe, control my temper or concentrate in lessons. The last two being of utmost importance.
Story of my life since after the Common Tests ended... Sometimes I fantasise about being in Hogwarts, because at least I would know my work better... I HOPE... being more interested in magic and all. That was the feeling I got when I was doing a quiz with Wan Jing. Oh yeah, *shameless plug* go to it here. We need more hits for the Charm quiz. And there will be more quizzes soon!
Back to what I was talking about. The only problem of being at Hogwarts would be which house I would be in... I was thinking either Slytherin or Ravenclaw... but for Slytherin I would be too amused to flaunt my family, which I probably won't have, and in Ravenclaw, I probably wouldn't be studious enough. So then Gryffindor? Not very brave. And I will skew with a glare anyone who tries to put me in Hufflepuff. (Which they did, actually, in school. But then all my friends were in the same predicament, being in the same fac, and I wouldn't like to join Engine or Computing. Not enough good friends there.)
Ah yes, friends. If my current class was in Hogwarts... well, then we wouldn't be a class. Isn't it so /boring/, just meeting like-minded people all the time? Another reason why I don't want to be at Hogwarts: Will definetely not meet Jie (Gryffindor). Siu Qey, Wan Jing, Tracy etc are all maybes (oscillating between 2 houses). Then again, will probably get to see more of Aine (good candidate for Slytherin) and Ling (good candidate for Ravenclaw, she's calm enough).
Argh, my head aches. At least it's raining.