I AM SERIOUS. I AM IN LOVE. I've got this light soaring feeling in my chest and eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, I don't feel like coming down.

What brought this on? (who is it?) you wonder. But the best part is, it's not anyone! It's just pure, unmitigated love and eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I was watching Nodame Cantabile 11 (What? You don't know what that is? SHAME ON YOU. Here's the Wikipedia article on it) and, since Chiaki's piano playing skills impressed me so much, I decided to hunt down the piece he was playing. It's the DIGITAL AGE, and anything can be found on the web. So I did a little poking around, and I found this and this.

MY HEART THREATENS TO TURN INTO A MILLION HAPPY FLUTTERY BUTTERFLIES, and there is something completely wrong with that metaphor, but I don't know how else to put that light-headed euphoric feeling into words. It's just overflowing JOY. It's like getting a phone call from a friend you'd been thinking about and having her tell you something even more wonderful. It's a feeling that makes you want to tap dance down the street in joy and you don't even care if you can tap dance or about the mortified looks because there's no other way of showing how HAPPY you are!

I can't really pinpoint it at the moment, but it might have to do with my relationship with the piano. I LOVE piano; I'm also completely hopeless at music history. I'm happy plonking away at the piano keys, but start a music conversation with me and I shrivel up and die. Because I really don't KNOW. I can walk around humming a piece of music the whole day, but ask me what that is and I'll have to tear through my music books in a frantic hurry (and I might not even find it).
But that's OK NOW. I have SHEET MUSIC TO PLAY and MUSIC TO LISTEN TO and WHO CARES IF I FORGET THE NAMES OF THE PIECES AND COMPOSERS IN A DAY OR TWO? Music is not about knowing names of composers! Music is about finding new pieces and getting better at them and being able to play them at leisure!

And it's not just music! I have resolved to be a better writer too, and not dash off fics as fast as I can! (This may or may not have been instigated by this.) Because unlike music, I have COMPLETE CONTROL over my writing and I can direct it! THE FUTURE IS BRIGHT.

I LOVE YOU ALL.