This place is like a warm security blanket that I run to every once in a while when something major comes up. I can still remember the times when I actually typed up blog entries under the table when I was in Literature classes, keeping my eyes on the teacher while writing my innermost thoughts. Thank goodness for having classes in the computer lab.



I guess that was just a mental detour to say that I've discovered things about myself that I may or may not be comfortable with. Last year, I signed up for a movie date service where guys invite you to movies and you decide whether or not to accept. My membership was renewed even though I wasn't keen on going for any more of such dates. However, I did accept such a date recently. Long story short, there was a mess-up in selection of the movie, and I threw a hissy fit and said I wouldn't go.



A hissy fit I later relented on. I decided to try out the movie (and the guy) after all. As a result I ended up experiencing what it was like to watch a movie for the first time alone. I don't blame him. After all I was seriously considering not going, and now that I've watched a movie alone, I know it isn't a fun experience. More importantly, I've learnt that it is far more important to have honesty in my actions, to do something only when I'm comfortable with doing it and thought things through. I should not want to do things just because it matches what I want to convey, or just because it's the easy way out.



I've decided to write this here because this is something I want to remember: a moment when I remembered why it's important to be honest, to myself the most of all.